i’m not talking to you; i’m talking to myself.
sometimes i don’t listen to myself, so i listen to you to see if i’m saying what i mean—and i look at you to see if i mean what say. in this way, i use you, as if it’s about you, but it never is. it’s always about me.
i’m always talking to myself.
(…teaching what i need to learn and learning that it’s not as easy as i would make it seem or have you believe.)